i cried out to no reply...

im currently so into SNSD!!! aiyos...the song 'never alone' rocks as much too! although its a soundtrack from the twilight saga new moon...
eeee...life truly sucks lorh...i really wish i can let go of everything here n juz go...i always thot my life was perfect. i realised that its not. im so used to saying life's a jugsaw puzzle. i ndda add in an additional sentence. 'life's lyk a jigsaw puzzle. i really nd that special him to piece up the messed n incomplete pieces together. wif him, my life will be perfect.' but too bad. i dun get what i want. the onli thing that i wish for, real hard, in my life. haizzz...life's that cruel...

i just realised that i dun really lyk some relatives/cousins in my life afterall...dey're damn act cute n snobbish..even if their what? 25 yrs old? lyk WTH lorh...posing lyk idiots in pics...then im alr very open to at least say a 'HI' to them. dey still say that im vry... srsly la...WTF?! all of them r so damn act cool lorh...what? one from some vry gd sch... so what? in fact, HE'S THE ONE THAT PISSES ME OFF! then one of my aunts, 'heh, y nbr call me?!' lyk wat the hell la...i forgot what to call her lurh, nd time to tink marhs...i bet she doesnt even noe my name...SNOBBISH STEWPID N IRRITATIN...WORST R MY COUSINS LORH...DEY'RE DAMN SHITTY, im damn glad i onli have to meet them onli once or twice or thrice, BEST IS IF ONCE ONLI! LYK IM VRY WILLING TO MEET THEM...
but...since dey're gramma is MY gramma's sis, i shall at least LEAVE 0.000000000001% of respect for them. ppl lyk them r WASTE-URE-SALIVA-IF-U-TOK-TO-THEM PPL. DEY DUN EVEN GIVE A SINGLE effin bit of RESPECT WEN URE TOKIN. SO, I SHALL NOT CALL THEM OR TOK TO THEM ANYMORE! EXCEPT MY ELDERS...N MY AUNT WEN IM FORCED TO...
BEST IS STILL MY CLOSE COUSINS LORH...THE ONLI GAL COUSIN IN S'PORE...THE OTHER'S OVERSEAS...BUT HECK CARE LURH...SHE DOESNT EVEN UNDERSTAND...CUZ SHE'S WAY WAY WAY TOOOO FRENLI...N MAKES FREN SUPER EFFIN FAST..SO IM SORTA LYK THE OUTCAST...
H8 SEC LIFE...

dude...u suck...

haizzz....omitian im freaking shit tired...i actually posted something on 1/7/2010 but duno where did the post fly to lurh...youth day isnt lyk youth day at all...im supposed to be resting instead of doing my bloody homework...what's wrong wif teachers now? dey cram u up wif all the homework if there r public hols...when we go back, the teachers complain tat we shuldnt complain so much cuz dey have 40 sets of homework to mark...lyk WTF?! dey dun wanna mark then dun give lurh! dumb ppl...im dAMN glad tat my parents arent teachers lorh...haizzz....theres malay tmr...which totally sucks....cuz i'll probably be making fun of the teacher n the words lorh...hope tat theres no test on malay...TESTS R STUPID. DEY R LIFE KILLERS! haizzz...enuf of tat lerh...i realli wish tat he'll at least tok to me lorh...tat fool...sms him, reply with stupid ans....
haizzz...i duno y...i kp tinking of him...my life's falling apart..isnt it? life's lyk a jigsaw puzzle...i realli nd tat special him to piece those last pieces together...wif tat my life's perfect. :D

dude...u suck...

heyzz! its 1st of july! 5 more months to december! I LUVVVV DECEMBER! cuz we will have our class gathering on that month! n i shld b the one who's organising! :) anyway, we'll talk about that l8r...
1stly: can GUESS WHO juz own up? its freaking irritating when ppl hu dont use their real names type NOT-SO-NICE stuff in my chatbox to insult people. lyk WTF? im NOT lesbo kay...N NO ONE EVER SAID THAT I WAS HOT...N I DUN LYK URE TYPE OF GAL. N R U EVEN A GAL??? SO, TO SAVE ALL THE TROUBLE, can u juz send me a msg or fb message to tell me hu u r? i promise i wun tell.
SO, get back to topic! its lyk mayb i'll book a chalet and soccer court.I'M sooooo kind RITE??? haizzz...5 months away...i might not even get a chance to hold...BUT DOUBLE WHACKO IS A MUST!
ANW, ndda go for hospital review cum checkup cum x-ray. knee hurts way way way too often...duno y lorh...haizzz....cant believe it lorh...left all my science notes in school...CAN'T FILE ANYTING!!!
im freaking tired now....
HE doesnt reply, he made me disappointed time and again...he is the onli one who is on my mind all the time...but y? y is he always the one who doesn't reply my smses? y is he always the one who avoids and never talks to me at class gatherings? im always looking forward to meeting him and talking to him...but...it seems lyk he always makes me feel THAT down...haizzz...Y? THINKIN OF THAT SPECIAL SOMEONE...
gotta go lerhs. BYE!

updaties!!!!!!

hmmm........its been damn long since i posted something...so, im here to update!!!!
1. june hols r almost over liao...NNNOOOOOO!!!!!!.... y does it seem to past so fast???
2. i juz had a super duper uper fun m'sia trip...cuz he came together wif us! tats y its freaking fun!
3. super excited...cuz im goin to marina barrage with him !to fly kite...watch sunset bla bla bla...but horh...HE IS NOT MY BF...DUN GETTIT WRONG!...hehehe
4.i haven finished my poem yet...zzzz stewpid poem...
5. 6 joy 2nd class gathering is coming! on friday! <3 WOOTS! luv esther n weilin for organising tis gathering! CAN'T WAIT FOR IT!

woots!

YARH!!! im so happy! the holidays have officially started! woots!!! and im finally enrolled as a guide! =D wootsy! luckily the question asked was easy...

need you now...

seriously...tis song is so true
here the lyrics...
Picture perfect memories scattered all around the floor
Reachin for the phone cause I can't fight it anymore
And I wonder if I ever crossed your mind
For me it happens all the time

It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without
I just need you now

Another shot of whiskey can't stop looking at the door
Wishing you'd come sweeping in the way you did before
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time

It's a quarter after one, I'm a little drunk and I need you now
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without
I just need you now

Guess I'd rather hurt than feel nothin at all

It's a quarter after one I'm all alone and I need you now

And I said I wouldn't call but I'm a little drunk and I need you now,

And I don't know how I can do without
I just need you now
I just need you now
Ooo, baby, I need you now

argh!!!

trust...it takes a million years to build up trust but in a second u can break it...true ...but why is it from a person whom i trust so much but broke trust in a second??? :'(